unrequited love

you know it stings when you realize you have been throwing yourself at someone who so obviously has a separate agenda, which up until that very moment you were able to reject. not necessarily in reference to boyfriend-girlfriend relationships but relationships in general. up until that second you allowed yourself to give this person your undivided attention although the attention was not neccesarily being returned. you made up excuses, alternatives, and any other thing you could possibly think of to explain their behavior. anything but admitting the fact that they simply did not need or care for you as you did for them any longer. so you torment yourself with times when said person did return your love. did talk to you all the time. did soothe your heart. did everything that made you smile. harder than reminiscing is when this person comes back to you but only partially. making you believe that once again everything is fine again only to leave you out to dry. but wallowing in this only gives you false hope. hope that maybe they're just going through a phase and will soon return to their old habits. the thing we come to reject for fear of losing yet another friend, lover, or whatever is that if someone cares about you, they will show it. they won't make you question it. and they will eventually come around with out having you make a fool out of yourself. plain and simple. except you realize this. and next time you're shunned by love the cycle will ensue.