today i realized humans have the ability get over anything.

when a glass breaks, the bigger the glass and the harder the impact, the smaller the pieces are.

i got around to picking up all the big pieces eventually but no matter how hard i try, i know there will always be tiny fragments left behind. i learned to walk on eggshells around these pieces, luckily not for the rest of my life but until i successfully avoided them enough to completely forget they were even there. i managed to move on and walked around freely when one day i stepped on one of these pieces. as it made its way into my flesh i realized this little piece of glass, even after all this time that had passed, was making me bleed and hurt as much as the breaking of the glass had hurt in the first place. but that's life. i can't avoid these fragments forever because the glass, at one point, was a part of my life. a significant part of my life that although gone will remain a part of me forever. no matter how hard i try, it is impossible to completely remove all of the debris.

so, i'm going to accept it. i'm not going to get mad at myself for being weak... i'm going to embrace the fact that i was able to clean up the big mess, as hard as it had been. i'm bound to step on the fragments, lots of times they're impossible to see... i don't step on them on purpose or because it's fair and i don't deserve better. i step on them because i'm human. and sometimes it's nice to remember those breakdowns that made me who i am. and brought me to where i have come.